Monday, September 12, 2011

Killing him didn't make me feel any better

I like my town with a little drop of poison

Nobody knows they're lining up to go insane

I'm all alone, I smoke my friends down to the filter

it didnt restore that beautiful girl that near child

Wipe him down with gasoline 'til his arms are hard and mean
From now on boys this iron boat's your home


it just left me feeling more hollow more dirty

Said steam, steam, a hundred bad dreams
Going up to Harlem with a pistol in his jeans
A fifty-dollar bill inside a palladin's hat
And nobody's sure where Mr. Knickerbocker's at

he didn't even resist he didnt even try to fight

Son of a bitch is never coming back here no more
Moon in the window and a bird on the pole
Can always find a millionaire to shovel all the coal

he just laughed and cried and let me chopslashcut

Two-dollar pistol but the gun won't shoot
I'm in the corner on the pouring rain
Sixteen men on a dead man's chest
And I've been drinking from a broken cup
Two pairs of pants and a mohair vest
I'm full of bourbon, I can't stand up

he looked sick

Let me fall out of the window with confetti in my hair
Deal out Jacks or Better on a blanket by the stairs
I'll tell you all my secrets, but I lie about my past
And send me off to bed for evermore


whatami forgetting 


  1. I'm sorry it's caused you pain..

    I'm still glad he's dead, though.

  2. Vengeance...begets more vengeance. At the same time, there's no telling what someone like him might have done. It's not easy. But what about out situation is?

    Rach...Should I kill Rhodes, if I get the chance? I wonder what you think.

  3. Maybe we've all got the wrong idea...
    Just more death
    more people dying


    I'm sorry. God fucking dammit. Whenever you're home, or whenever you stop... drop me a line.
    God grant me the wisdom...

  4. You know Rachael,
    that feeling.
    It is a good thing.
    It means you're still
    you're still human.



    I wish I could
    feel that too.

  5. Rachael. Killing is hard. It's good that it didn't make you feel better.

  6. Oh Rachael. Rachael. I'm so sorry.

    How far are you?

  7. Questions of memory aren't so easy. You should know that by now.

  8. There's almost never a time when killing is appropriate. But I don't think anyone will fault you for this one. Talk to whoever you can about it, and try to keep moving. It's all you can do.

  9. @Dia: Thank you dear. I don't know if that is right, but I think even if it was not he wanted to die.

    @Konaa: Rhodes, if he is still human deserves a chance like the rest of us. I am not an angel of death.

    @Spencer: I will remember.

    @TMV: New York. I;m staying here for a while. not yet.